[perfect match]

i'm still tired. i slept at near 6 this morning and i was woken up by flor's call at 10. 4 fucking hours of sleep in 2 days. i was too lazy to do anything so i had cereal and fruit bar for breakfast. well, this is one of the times when i simply love myself for stocking up "instant-breakfast". and ya, the pile of unwanted clothes is still lying on my bedroom floor. if i still can't find a bag big enough or any box, and if i get anymore fustrated than this, i'm going to chuck everything down the chute, dammit. KJ is behaving quite normally recently. he calls me often now. he said something real sweet yesterday and my heart melted at that immediate moment. but it didn't last for very long. 'coz i'm not stupid. flor has shifted to her new place already. she said everything is fine so far except it's fucking warm and they need a cooler. ya, they = JM and flor. i might pay them a short visit later, together with KJ. but i don't expect KJ to turn up, most probably he will go missing again. but it doesn't matter. i miss flor, and Jr. it's almost funny, that it turned out KJ is not leaving me afterall. i don't understand why we are still sticking to each other, most probably, cuz, we only have each other. and we hate to work, we are hopeless gamblers, heavy smokers, hardcore alcoholics, drugs abusers, and we both love money and freedom so much, and we are absolutely insaneee. it seems like there's nothing good about me, and him. but, [i'm loving you more each day, i didn't even know it].

May 03, 2002 - 1:59 pm